I have to write a synopsis for a story. A story that could be a documentary someday, or this term. School is good, but it hurts. I have to be okay with not knowing how to do things, not being naturally good at them, like Final Cut pro and working with cameras. Key things if your going to make films. Its the writing part that is even more troubling right now. That’s the part i’m supposed to be able to do, but i’m stumped by how to write a synopsis for a story that could be a film. What will it be? The Vancouver story, the Addiction story? That’s all i think about, those are the stories i want to tell. I just don’t know how to fit them in to a classical narrative, a paragraph, more than a rant and it needs to have a payoff. How about “were all fucked, now we can relax!”
I’m questioning today whether i can follow through with School. Maybe all the techy stuff is just not for me, too hard on my brain, and then i remember that i need to be patient, and slog through it a while longer. Its a funny thing to be needing confidence to go through sucking at something, but that is what i need right now, confidence and patience. School still feels like the right choice in many ways, i like the routine; getting up early, making my lunch and snack, getting my books together, going to bed early. I feel like a mom sending her kid to school.